Okay, so a moment of transparency… I’m good by myself, but doggoneit, 🗣🗣🗣I WANT A FREAKING HUSBAND! Every now and then I’ll ask God, “God, where is my husband?‼️” I know that my future hubby is out there somewhere, asking God, “Lord, where is my wife?” Lol I have hope, but dear Jesus, 😫“WHY IS IT TAKING SOOOO LONG????” I used to be like many independent women who “claim” that they don’t need a man, or who are overly consumed with their career or anything other than a man, but goshdarnit, lol, I need a man! 🤷🏾‍♀️… side note, I’m so proud of my substitute cuss words… now if only I can practice this in my everyday speech. Cussing is something me and God is working on… Yeah, so anyway! I’ve gotten to the point that I’m feeling like Al Green! I’m so tired of being alone, I’m so tired of on my own, Won’t you help me, BOY, just as soon as you can. 🎵A93759BC-CA1F-4A84-A0CE-FA6CBA1119C9

Not many people will put their thoughts and feelings out there for the world to see, in fear that the world will laugh or judge how they feel. I could care less though. I’m tired of faking the funk! I want a husband who fits into my purpose, and I into his. I want a life partner. I want a teammate. When God created Adam, Genesis 2:18 says, “The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.” This tells us that we need a significant other to help us! Help us in ministry, life and not to mention we need a husband to procreate, or if you’re like me and you don’t want anymore kids, then you still need a husband for sex! But sex isn’t at the top of my list for needing a husband (which is why I’ve been celibate for 2.5 years! Yay me!), I need a husband because I believe husband and wife is a part of God’s design for us. I need someone to fellowship with daily, a teammate, a soulmate. Even now though, I hear the Lord telling me to have a little more patience, and I am. I’m being patient but I’m also being proactive, meaning this year, I began to date again! Yay me! I realized that my future husband wasn’t going to fall out of Heaven into my bed, or come knocking on my door saying, God sent him to marry me, so, just as faith without works is dead in other aspects of our lives, I realized if I didn’t put my faith into action to be seen, so that my future husband can find me, then I’d be waiting forever. Anyways, here’s to the wait!D9090608-2DF4-4F8D-A42E-55A5BA9619D9.gif

May your wait be full joy, while you seek God and find yourself. May you learn to love yourself so that you’re able to love your future significant other. May you receive the full measure of everything that God has in store for you, and may the Lord fulfill your desire to have a life partner to love, become one with and to glorify His name. In Jesus name. Amen. ❤️

I remember when I was young and naive, I wanted to marry a man of God, preferably a pastor. In my (young and naive) mind a pastor or man of God in general was a better choice to have as a spouse, than a “regular man”. Silly me… Little did I know that even a man of God was still a freaking MAN! They have the same issues we all have. They sin just as we all sin. They have their struggles and face temptation just like the rest of us. They have things they’ve yet to overcome too! A title doesn’t make them any less of a man. Romans 3:23– For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God. ***Sighs*** I just thought… at least I wouldn’t have to face the same demons with a saved man as I did with someone who I was previously unequally yoked with… After “talking” to a couple of pastors, I realized that I had unrealistic expectations. Now, don’t get me wrong, I know that no one is perfect except God… I know this, but why did the guys I end up “talking to” or dating, imperfections had to be so… imperfect? 😒No, not physically… spiritually! Why were they comfortable with spirits that I was uncomfortable with? What was God trying to show me? Well, I believe it’s two things God was trying to show me. One is obvious, and that is that no one is perfect, so I just have to choose my battles wisely when making a decision about a spouse. Obviously, I don’t want to settle for something toxic and try to squeeze love out of it, that’s ridiculous. So, number one again, no one is perfect, but choose your battles wisely. Number two is, well this should be number one because it’s definitely more important, shift your focus to God. All that time, I was looking for a man, I should have been looking to God. Don’t get me wrong, I was saved, but I wasn’t chasing (seeking)  God like I should have, and when you’re not seeking God like you should, you’ll entertain all sorts of ungodliness and all sorts of ungodliness will chase after you. You may try to get rid of it, but if you’re not completely focused on Jesus, then those spirits will torment you. Thank God I’ve found my purpose in life, and is using it to bring God glory, and not myself. Using my gift for the Kingdom of God has changed my ENTIRE outlook on life. The more I began to seek God and use my life for His glory, the less time I had to entertain foolishness, whether it was with a saved man or unsaved man! Listen y’all! SAVED PEOPLE SIN! Lol It doesn’t make it right, but I’m telling you, none of us will reach perfection until we reach Heaven. The only thing we can do is try our best to follow Jesus example of how to live and love, and be like Paul and PRESS!

Some of us are perfecting the wrong things. There are some people who battle their insecurities by purchasing a new body, hoping that it gets them the love or validation that they should first accept from God and then lavish upon themselves. There are people who try to battle their demons with money, buying expensive things and even fame, but you can’t get rid of those spirits with the things of the world, you can only get rid of them with the Word of God. If hatred is in your heart, you can’t get rid of it by beating your face… it doesn’t matter how much makeup you apply. If you battle low self esteem, you can become an overachiever all you want, but in your mind, you’ll never be good enough. Do you understand where I’m coming from? It doesn’t matter how good we “appear” to be on the outside, if we don’t understand that greatness is an inside job, then we’ve missed the mark. We have to love God, ourselves and others. We also need to believe what God says about us, more than what people think about us. No matter how much of the things of this world a person possesses, those things cannot hide the ugly truth. It’s like putting a bandaid on a headache… It does nothing but make you look foolish. Deal with the source of the problem instead of trying to bandage it with the things of the world. External flaws are easy to cover up. It’s those inner demons that stick out like a sore thumb. None of us are perfect, and we will all be a work in progress until the day Jesus returns, so for now change your mindset. Philippians 4:8 says, “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” Focus on the will of God, because that’s what really matters. When we leave this life, having the perfect physical features or millions of followers on social media, or all the money in the world won’t matter at all. What’s going to matter is the fact that a person has accepted Jesus in their heart, and that they’ve lived a life of love through Christ. Jesus told us to love our neighbor as ourself (see Mark 12:31). This means we cannot love someone else if we do not love ourselves. Change what you can, accept what you can’t, but never try to fix a spiritual issue with physical things. It simply doesn’t work.

Don’t be afraid of your brokenness being exposed to God. Too often people get comfortable with being broken, because they’ve been that way for so long, and some refuse to turn those not so pretty parts of them over to God because it hurts to let their pain go. I know it sounds crazy, but when you’re used to pain, it becomes your norm and it hurts to get rid of comfort. Therefore people “protect” their pain. Ask anyone who has ever dealt with an addiction of any kind, and they will tell you that the road to sobriety was painful. Sure, the addiction may have caused them pain, but that pain was comforting, and getting rid of comfort hurts! No one likes to be uncomfortable, but God didn’t call us to be comfortable, therefore, He will call us out in order to wake us up. He will expose us, just to cover us with grace. Hebrews 12:5-6, “And have you completely forgotten this word of encouragement that addresses you as a father addresses his son? It says, “My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son.” Allow room for the Holy Spirit to correct you. Correction is not comfortable but it’s necessary. The Lord wants us to learn from our experiences, good and bad. He wants us to become better, not bitter. When it comes to past pains, don’t allow what happened to you to get inside of you. Let’s just say that you did, but you don’t even realize it. All you have to do is ask God to remove anything in you, that’s not of Him. It’s not going to be a pretty picture when He starts to reveal what those things are, but you must trust Him, and let those things go. The truth is, we’ve all gotten comfortable with something painful. We may not know it’s painful because we’ve been carrying it around for so long, and that’s why we need the Spirit Of God to reveal those things to us. Quit holding on to the very things that’s holding you back. Accept God’s correction. His correction is a redirection to a better life for you. God doesn’t correct you to condemn you, He corrects you so that He can fill you with His Spirit and you can live victoriously, the way He intended. Embrace His power that’s at work in you. Healing always hurts before it heals. As the saying goes, “The truth hurts,” but Jesus said it will also set you free. The only way to put you back together again, is to allow God to get rid of whatever it was that broke you in the first place. Don’t get comfortable in your brokenness, instead meet God there. Let Him see the good, the bad and the ugly you, so that He can make your mind, body and soul, both beautiful and free. In Jesus name. Amen. 

… 💭Most people’s advice comes from their knowledge or lack thereof… Be careful who you listen to. It’s easy to follow the crowd because everyone wants to be “loved” or “accepted”. However, real love and acceptance doesn’t have anything to do with what the crowd is doing… The crowd can all go dive off a cliff and right before they do it, declare that it’s not killing yourself, it’s freedom… but God gave us common sense, and what you choose to do with it is your free will… but you need to choose wisely. Real love begins with God and then loving yourself and being accountable for your actions, regardless of what the world is doing. You should be constantly making yourself better, and encouraging others to be better. Real love doesn’t bask in their misery and invite others to do the same… that’s foolishness… This is why a person must ask God for wisdom, knowledge and understanding, because you need all three to discern spirits and you need all three to successfully navigate through life so that you won’t be bamboozled by what your feelings wants to hear… because people can sell you b.s. all day long, if that’s what you’re on, or if you’re a person who’s led by your emotions and not the Holy Spirit. So, before you allow someone to talk you into doing something stupid, take a step back and look at their life. You’re not judging, you’re observing… Is this person giving you sound advice? Is this person being led by the Holy Spirit? Does this person have qualities that you aspire to have? Is this person trustworthy? Is this person mentally, emotionally and spiritually mature enough to even be giving out advice? Listen, don’t be pressured into doing something just because your friend did it, or your grandma did it, or your coworkers done it! Figure out what works for you, by seeking God. We are all different, and so are our journeys. We may have similar stories, but none of them are one hundred percent the same. Therefore we must seek God first, as the scriptures say, and then everything else will be added to us! God will give you whatever it is that you need, to help you get through life, all you have to do is ask, and then go in faith with the answer that He has given you. James 1:5, “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”

Let’s be clear about something. People cheat because they want to. Nobody forces them into bed and makes them. Not only that, but it doesn’t have anything to do with what their spouse isn’t or is doing. If you’re committed to someone then you’re going to communicate your feelings to that person so that the two of you can get some understanding and work things out. If someone’s claiming to be monogamous, but they’re not committed or dealing with insecurities or past relationship pains, then more than likely that person’s hurt will also become their spouse’s pain. One of the most childish excuses to dismiss a person’s disloyalty is to blame it on their innocent spouse. I’m not speaking in regards to their spouse not having any flaws, because none of us are perfect. I’m speaking in regards to that person choosing to keep their loyalty despite whatever’s going on within their relationship. You don’t get a pass to cheat, just because your relationship is facing difficulties. If anything this is the time to really come together and weather the storm. You don’t get to dump your frustrations from your current relationship into another human being. If you think about it, this is exactly what cheating is. Sexually transporting baggage. The next thing you know, the person who cheated with the perpetrator inherits their problems, and vice versa. This baggage of problems and frustrations are nothing more than ungodly soul ties… and if you’re not married and you’re being sexually intimate with your spouse, I hate to break it to you, but no matter how much you think you love them, you’re also dealing with an ungodly soul tie. It doesn’t matter how you try to justify it, if you are a child of God, then you know how He feels about sex before marriage. It’s a sin. 🤷🏾‍♀️Sex is more than just sex. God knows this and this is why He don’t want us out here laying down with a person and getting up with all of their demons. Which is why it’s so hard for some people, especially women, to let some men go, because those men have dumped all of their issues into those ladies and gone about their business, meanwhile the women  (who’ve received all these issues vaginally) is still holding on to these men because they feel connected. A woman may think it’s love, but it’s really a spiritual attachment that doesn’t have anything to do with God (the definition of love). Meanwhile the man knew it wasn’t love from the get go, only a way that he chose to relieve his frustrations… I’m not male bashing because women do this too. Cheating is disgusting in every aspect. Can it be forgiven? Of course, but don’t be a fool. If the cheater isn’t trying to rectify their behavior and if they’re not seeking God to help them do so, then you’re wasting your time. We can only do so much on our own, and trying to fight personal demons without the Spirit Of God, is a lost cause. Anyone can change if they allow God to do the changing, and still it’s a process. Philippians 2:13, “For it is God who works in you to will and to act on behalf of His good purpose.” We can’t do God’s will our way. We need the Holy Spirit to do God’s will His way! Thank God for Jesus! We’ve all made mistakes, but as long as we’re still here, there is grace! Whether you’ve cheated, been cheated on, dealing with an ungodly soul tie or whatever issues you have, surrender your all to God; both the problems you’re aware of, and the ones you may be unaware of. Just say: Lord forgive me for doing things my way. I’ve been trying to “handle” life on my own. I’m tired of carrying this baggage around. I’m ready to give it to you. I’m ready to be free and delivered, so that I can do your will and love the way you intended me to. Strengthen me where I’m weak, build me up where I’m torn down, restore my broken pieces, help me forgive, and walk in your love. In Jesus Christ name I pray. Amen. 🙏🏾

We as the body of Christ are supposed to exemplify who Jesus is. The world or even fellow believers whose faith may need strengthening, should be able to come to us for love, wisdom and guidance in the Lord. In other words, we should be there for one another, just as God is always here for us. Joshua 1:5, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Sadly, the love of Christ was only shown in half the members of the church that Sarah attended, but Sarah had been a member of this church since she was a child. It wasn’t until she became an adult and began to be heavily involved in various ministries of the church, that she realized how much some of the members of the church weren’t there for God at all, instead they were there to support the church building, and not the church (body of Christ).

There were cliques in the church. There were the self proclaimed “perfect people” who never sinned a day in their life, and shunned anyone who looked as if they’ve sinned. There were the “day ones” who according to them, was with the pastor when he began his ministry out of his basement and believes their support (money) is what has brought the church from ten members to ten thousand. There’s the haves and the have nots. The close friends and family of the pastor, and to be honest the list goes on and on. Not everyone in the church is in these cliques, but there are many. The Pastor wasn’t a part of this foolishness, nor his wife, and many other members, and that is why Sarah stayed. 2 Timothy 3:1-5, “But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive,disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy,without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous,rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people.”

It was tough for Sarah, having to deal with the negativity, because she dealt with a lot on her job all week, and then she would come to church and have to deal with the same foolishness from church folk. She talked to God a lot about leaving that church, but God told her that He needed her there. He encouraged her not to allow what was going on around her, to get inside of her. God reassured her that her calling was there, He needed her on the welcoming committee. A lot of older members (not in age, in membership) dropped the ball, and would leave the new members hanging. Some of the newer members had even come to Sarah and stated that before she’d reached out to them, the person who was assigned to them never made contact. Some new members felt as if they were thrown into a job they weren’t trained for, and yet was expected to know what to do. Sarah knew that was frustrating, because it actually happened to her five years ago when she first began her job. Sometimes when she was alone, Sarah cried, because there was so much opposition against her in church. She would come up with new ideas, and the clique of “old and set in their ways” would disregard it and try to keep things the way that they’ve always done it. One day she was praying that God change the hearts of the people within the church, and God told her, it wasn’t about those people changing, it was about Him using her to make a change.

You see, many people had come into that church seeking God, but ended up in a clique that had nothing to do with God, all because they were misguided from the beginning. There were some who came and joined the church, but left within a few short months because they didn’t feel welcomed, but ever since Sarah has been over the welcoming ministry, new members have become more engaged and all the new members have stayed. Sarah realized that although her calling seemed lonesome and she had to cry sometimes, God had put her in this position because she was born with a friendly welcoming spirit that genuinely loved people, and that’s what drew people to Christ. She had a gift that despite opposition, she was able to maintain her position in Christ, and after all, that’s what God wants from us all. It’s important to remember that God doesn’t always change the situation, sometimes He change you in the midst of the situation, and this my dear friends is what growth and having the strength of the Lord is all about. You were called for a purpose. You were called to be different. ❤️

1 Peter 4:8, “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.”

 

 

Some people use others as masks to suppress their inner pain or to cover up their insecurities. Instead of dealing with the past failures or disappointments, insecurities or struggles, they’ll use other individuals who don’t make their pain better, but makes their image appear to be better. We are living in a world where sadly, people care more about what others think of them, than loving and caring for themselves. We’re living in a world that’s all about image, and if you don’t have what the world says you should have in order to be “somebody” then to the world you’re a nobody, and sadly many people judge themselves and others by this worldly standard. These people believe that if they don’t live like the secular world, then they’re a nobody. All of this is a distraction caused by the enemy. Whose goal is to keep you focused on your external image more than you’re focused on building up your inner self, so that he can pretty much control you. If your focus is off, he can get you to neglect your God given assignment (purpose), or he can get you to use your purpose to his advantage instead of glorifying God. If a person believes that this life is the end, they’ll fall for it. We are spiritual beings who are having a natural experience. Hebrews 9:27, “And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment.” This scripture confirms that this life is not the end, and that we will be held accountable for our actions, but thanks to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, he took our guilt and shame upon himself, and freed us from hell. All we need to do is believe and allow His Spirit to work in us. John 5:24, “Very truly I tell you, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be judged but has crossed over from death to life.” Focus on Jesus, and He will teach you what really matters. He will teach you how to love, His way. He will teach you how to be humble and selfless, knowing that this world is not your home, and your reward is Heaven. He will teach you how to use your gift to give someone else hope. 1 John 2:17, “The world and everything in it that people desire is passing away; but those who do the will of God live forever.” The pleasures of this world are temporary. Do what pleases God. Go to Him and allow Him to get your heart right. Don’t believe that a certain amount of things, money or love from people will heal you, because it won’t. Having all the riches of the world, is not more important than being rich in love, and being known by many people is not more important than being known by God. 1 Corinthians 1:25, “For what seems to be God’s foolishness is wiser than human wisdom, and what seems to be God’s weakness is stronger than human strength.“ Allow God to heal you so that you can really get your shine on, not like the world, but God’s way, which allows you to be the light of Christ in this life and the one to come.

Lord have mercy. How many times has God physically delivered us from a situation, only for us to remain mentally caged by our own way of thinking (leaning to our own understanding). I believe that sometimes we pray for something so long, and believe that somehow when we get what we pray for, all of our life issues will magically fade away. This is a very naive way of thinking. People or things that we pray for, won’t fix our hearts and mind, only God can do that. The Word of God says, “Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the LORD delivers him out of them all (Psalm 34:19). Listen my good people, we are going to go through. Riches won’t fix everything. There’s some things that money simply cannot buy. A husband or wife won’t fix what’s broken inside of you. A good one can pray you through and inspire, motivate and love you… but they cannot fix you. We must go to God on our own behalf, and allow Him to change our hearts and minds. God can deliver us out of a situation, but we must use our free will to have a mind of Christ. The Word of God says, in Philippians 2:5, “Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus.” Your deliverance happens long before you see a physical manifestation. It all begins in your mind. You see, God had delivered the children of Israel from slavery, but soon as they saw Pharaoh fast on their tracks, they panicked and begin to doubt God and even thought, It wasn’t so bad being a slave…

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Do you know why they felt this way? Because they weren’t delivered in their minds! God can do a lot of things for us, but He will not make up our minds for us, because that’s conflicting with the free will that He has given us! We have to believe that He is who He says He is, and will do what He said He’ll do! When troubles come our way, there’s no time to panic! It’s actually an opportunity to tell the hell we go through that, GOD SAID WHAT HE SAID! God wants us to seek Him and move forward with confidence in His Word. He doesn’t want us panicking and being doubtful, He wants us to trust Him. As quick as fear and doubt come to your mind, cast them out! 2 Corinthians 10:5 says, “We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” If you tell yourself, “I’m going to trust God, no matter what my situation looks like.” Guess what’s going to happen? God is going to not only move on your behalf, but exceed your expectations. God loves faith! Hebrews 11:6, “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” Physcial deliverance is nothing if you’re still a mental slave… remember that. Your deliverance begins with you! Jesus has set us free, but He also wants you delivered, but you must work with Him. You must not only desire it, you must train your mind that you already are, and whatever you cannot do, God will do for you! Deliverance is composed of two parts, believing and doing… Sounds a lot like faith, doesn’t it? 😉 Faith without works is dead (James 2:17). You’ve wasted enough time being mentally caged by what you feel and what you see… God is saying, IT’S TIME TO MOVE FORWARD. HE SAID, WHAT HE SAID! 

Exodus 14:13-15

And Moses said to the people, “Fear not, stand firm, and see the salvation of the LORD, which he will work for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall never see again. The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Then the LORD said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on.”

 

“Lord, why can’t you make it easier?” This is the question I asked God today, and He immediately replied, “Why can’t you trust me?” I hate going through, and currently that’s exactly what I’m doing… GOING THROUGH! It seems like my faith is constantly being tested, and I’m just going to keep it real, a lot of times I literally freak out when I believe for God to come through one way, and He doesn’t. Just as I was typing the previous sentence, He came through in a way that said, “Everything will be okay.”

He didn’t come through my way, but He came through His way. He didn’t come through in my timing, nevertheless, He was right on time. You see, if it was up to me, I’d never have any issues. I’d never have days that I cried, or felt lonely, hurt or afraid. Life would be smooth sailing. Instead this is what my life feels like…

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Yeah, I’m the man who got kicked in water… As if getting kicked in the butt with two feet isn’t enough. 😒

Jesus be a life guard, a life jacket and a rescue boat, because truth is I’m tired! I feel exactly how the disciples felt when Jesus was asleep on the boat, and the wind and waves came and tossed the boat about and they woke Jesus up saying, “Lord! Save us! We’re going to die!” I know that He is with me, but I don’t like being uncomfortable. I don’t like when the storms of life comes raging.

I’m going to keep it one hundred… I’m the bratty child of God. I want him to always tell me yes and I always want him to give me what I want. 🤷🏾‍♀️ But like a good good Father, He doesn’t always say yes, and He doesn’t always give me what I want.

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You know why, because if He did, there wouldn’t be a need for faith. It would be too easy for us as people. We’d forget about what God has done and begin to think we’ve accomplished everything we have in life, on our own. We wouldn’t be appreciative. We’d think it’s what He supposed to do.

But His grace is sufficient ( 2 Corinthians 12:9), and it keeps me humble. I know one hundred percent that on my own, I don’t deserve any of the blessings He’s given me. So, why do I throw a temper tantrum when He doesn’t come through like I want Him to? Because I become afraid and anxious. I encourage thousands of people across the U.S. everyday, but that doesn’t mean I’m not human.

I experience the same things that everyone else  experience. 1 Peter 5:9 (NLT) “Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your family of believers all over the world is going through the same kind of suffering you are.“ I fall short and spiritually, I’m pretty sure that I fall out like a two year old having a fit when his or her parent takes something from them or tells them no.  I know God probably be like, I can’t take you no where child! 🤦🏾‍♀️

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Which is probably why I keep going through the same type of test. I know He’s trying to strengthen my faith, because He literally can’t take me anywhere if I let every obstacle that I face, get me upset. Now don’t get me wrong. I’m only upset for a second, and then the Holy Spirit gets me in check, but I believe God wants me to be more consistent in my faith. When my situation looks impossible, instead of getting upset, He wants me to pray for wisdom and direction.

He wants me to trust Him that He already knew I’d face that obstacle, but He wants me to believe, and I do. I just have to learn to stop making things that I go through all about me, and learn to ask Him, “God, what do you require of me?” Hopefully I ace this test soon, because I’m tired of taking it. I know that once I past this test, there will be another one that I need to pass, but once I pass this one, I will have the wisdom to know how to deal with the next one. Thank God for Jesus, because I’m a hot mess with Him, so there’s no telling what or where I’d be without Him.

If you are going through like I am, repeating the same tests, and it feels like you’re stuck. I want you to know that God is only trying to strengthen our faith and teach you to exercise patience. The thing about strengthening one’s faith is, or learning patience is, you must be tested. 🤷🏾‍♀️ There’s no way around it. But we can do this, be encouraged! Romans 5:4, “And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.”

I know it’s frustrating not knowing what God’s going to do in your personal situation. The anxiety is real when facing the unknown. But it’s okay not to know, because He knows what’s best, even if we throw a fit! Sometimes we believe too small, so He allows us to face a challenge, so that our faith becomes bigger, bolder, brighter! You’re not really believing God, when you can clearly see a way.

Faith isn’t about everything going good and having everything under your control. Real faith is not seeing a way, but believing God will make a way. Real faith facing situations that’s out of your control but believing no matter what God is in control. Real faith is believing God can, but even if He doesn’t, you continue to trust Him anyway. Real faith is believing that God knows and wants what’s best for you even when He tells you no or doesn’t come through like you expected Him to.

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