Fighting my way to the top of the water,

I just need some air.

I’ve been holding my breath for so long,

fighting to breathe… 

Fighting. To. Breathe…

The world beneath the surface is going in circles, but doesn’t revolve around me…

Sure, there’s beauty, there’s life, but their serenity makes me dizzy.

Everyone goes about their business as if the waters aren’t drowning them, and yet, it’s killing me.

They don’t know they’re dying, they’re just glad to be free.

If I could only get to the top and catch my breath, there would be no one on top to look down on me.

Hey, there’s a sailor navigating towards me, he doesn’t have a care in the world as the waters carry him downstream.

I’m fighting my way up, but he cannot see me.

In frustration and desperation, I make it to the top, but the waters of aggression covers my mouth.

The waters are good to him. He relaxes as it carries him wherever he wants to go.

”Help! I’m over here!” My yell sounds more like a dry whisper.

I’m weak and weary, and fighting for my life.

He’s no longer in sight.

I need a lifeboat…
I need, a lifeboat…

I learned a long time ago that when you go looking for trouble, you find it. It’s something about the intent behind a person’s actions… the truth of that intent always reveal itself in the results. If you say one thing with your mouth, but mean something completely different in your heart, whatever is in your heart  will manifest as a result of your energy, and not necessarily your words. 

Proverbs 23:7

For as he thinks in his heart, so is he. “Eat and drink!” he says to you, But his heart is not with you.

It’s so important for us to be aware of what we store in our hearts. The cause will have an effect. If a person is harboring negativity in their hearts, they are not only taking negative energy everywhere they go, but they will become a magnet for negativity. Check this out… even if that person is unaware that they’re carrying negativity inside themselves! So, we must not only be woke to the things going on around us, but we must be woke to the things going on inside of us. 

What we carry on the inside is eternal, so let’s make sure it’s beneficial to us in spirit, mind, and our body. Let’s also make sure that it’s beneficial for others. Let’s walk in love, positivity, and the light of Christ. Let’s make sure that we have pure motives, and there are no hidden agendas. Most importantly, let our actions glorify God, and not ourselves.

I don’t know about you, but I’m praying that my actions are honest before God. I want God to see me as honest, meaning my works and my words match what’s in my heart. After all a person’s heart reveals their truth. I’m doing a self evaluation and taking inventory tonight. Whatever is in my heart that’s taking up space, contaminated, outdated, and keeping me from receiving what God has in store for me, I’m tossing it out right now in Jesus name.

Where I’m going, there’s only room for love, joy, peace, prosperity, and positivity! I plan to not only carry this energy, but share it in all its authenticity! It’s a new day on the inside of me, because something new, has happened within me. In Jesus name. Amen.

Isaiah 43:19

“For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland.”

Pray before you speak in anger. If you be still and allow God to move on your behalf, you’ll be amazed by how God chooses to bless you. The person you may be impatient with could be the person who shows you the kindness and compassion you need to smile again. That petty issue that you’re upset about, could be a misunderstanding, and if you remain humble for God, and listen to His voice, something beautiful can be birthed from you not giving in to your anger. It’s easy to feel and give into those feelings, whether they’re justified or not, but don’t act out of feelings alone.

Respond with truth and respond in love. Sometimes we must be silent, in order to hear God clearly. So, quiet those thoughts, words, anxieties, and learn to be still. You may help lead someone to Christ, or the person you’re upset with could have a powerful testimony you need, or you may have the patience and gentle spirit they need to get inspired and put things into proper perspective.

Everything happens for a reason. You may not know that when a situation arises that you can’t make sense out of, but know this, you will be surprised at how God moves in your life when you don’t react in anger, when you stay patient, and when you remain humble. Doing these things allows you to put yourself and your feelings aside, and allow God to not only fight on your behalf, but allow His glory to shine on you. I challenge you to be at peace the next time you want to act in anger, and watch the good that comes out of the situation. You can’t go wrong when you choose to fight the right way.

What’s the right way to fight when you’re triggered? You fight by being still. How to be still? By not giving into your anger. Don’t allow anger to control you. Control it, by letting letting it go, and allowing our Awesome God to fight for you!

Ephesians 4:26 (GNT)

“If you become angry, do not let your anger lead you into sin, and do not stay angry all day.”

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We’re all different. We experience situations differently. One person may go through something that they consider traumatic, while another person may go through something similar and consider it, “not that bad.” Although we all experience situations from different perspectives, different backgrounds, different ways, and at different times, it’s important to understand that we also experience situations as different people. None of us are completely the same, so don’t ever downplay someone else’s pain.

Sometimes people need to hurt before they can heal. Sometimes people need to feel the fullness of the pain that they are carrying in order to release it. Don’t be insensitive and selfish, and make someone else’s pain about you. It’s not about you, it’s about them. Sometimes, people need a listening ear, and not a running mouth. 

A person may mean well when they’re trying to comfort others, but the delivery may come off wrong. They may think they’re saying something to strengthen someone going through a tough time, but if the delivery is off, they can make matters worse. We must learn to be more sympathetic to what others go through, and stop making their pain about us. Just because we go through things tough as nails, doesn’t mean the next person will. They could go through that thing and totally break down, so we must choose our words wisely, and don’t compare how well you handled a situation to how poorly they’re handling a similar situation. 

No situation is 100% the same because we are all completely different people. If someone was violated in any way, or has experienced something they consider traumatic, don’t shrug and say, “It happens,” or don’t try to excuse their pain, or downplay their feelings… Let them grieve, their way. It’s okay to allow people to go through the motions of what they’re dealing with. You don’t have to throw them a pity party, but you can listen to them. 

It doesn’t matter how you personally handled a situation, if you’re only boasting about it instead of trying to help the individual heal. Boasting and comparing your situation with theirs, makes their pain about you… again, it’s not about you. You don’t need to hate who they hate, or get revenge on the person who harmed them, but let them hurt, so that they can heal. Be a hug. Be listening ears. 

Be a prayer warrior on their behalf. Be an inspiration and a supporter, but never ever, downplay someone else’s pain. No one should ever feel like they’re in a situation alone, or if they’re somehow being overly dramatic about what they’ve been through or is going through. This is dedicated to anyone who’s going through anything. It doesn’t matter if the trauma happened yesterday or fifty years ago, do what YOU need to do to HEAL in a healthy way.

Cry if you have to. Scream if you need to. Speak with a counselor if you want to. Do what you need to do for you, and know that you are never alone. God bless you! ❤️

I’m going to give you a few golden nuggets (secrets) to success… It’s not found in your comfort zone and it’s definitely not found in familiar faces. You must NOT be afraid to take risks, you must be able to accept constructive criticism, and you must learn from your mistakes. Stop thinking that your success rides on the backs of people you know or grew up with, because your success is up to you, and success varies from one person to another. Success is not being rich.

There are plenty of rich people who are failing at life. Success is living a FULL life. Success is accomplishing any of the goals you’ve set for yourself, small and large. Celebrate every goal you accomplish and stop waiting to be happy until you hit the big one! When you hit the big goal, it’s definitely something to celebrate, but if you have a void in your heart, the void will continue to be there when you hit the pinnacle of your success. This is because the world’s idea of success won’t fill that void.

No outside thing can fix those inner issues. So, get right with God and learn to love and be at peace with yourself first, no matter how the world views you. The only One you need to worry about knowing you is, God. Stop working so hard to get people’s recognition, because those people only love the idea of you, and not the real you. The people who love and support you for real, knows the real you and you don’t have to step out of character, or do something dramatic to earn their love, because it’s unconditional. Last but not least, don’t be afraid to get to know new people.

A sad truth is that, most people who’ve known you a long time WON’T support you, for different reasons. You may think they owe you loyalty, but they don’t. It is what it is, focus on those who are loyal to you right now, and aren’t waiting on your “come up” to ride the wave. Most of your blessings will come from strangers. That’s just how God works. The lack of love or support from people you know, can’t stop what God is doing through you.

He put you here for a purpose, and your focus is key to fulfilling it. So, hang in there. Don’t get caught up in what’s going on in other people’s lane, stay in yours! Keep a humble spirit and a pure heart. Keep God first.

Branch out and take risks. Celebrate small success as well as the big. Find love and peace within yourself, and my friend, you’re going to be all right! Love you! ❤️ God bless. 

God keep my mind focused, my heart guarded, and my motives pure. Help me to stay in my own lane, so that I can make sure that my life is straight, and that it glorifies you. Protect me from the snares of the enemy. Keep me from walking into temptations trap. 

Forgive my sins. Take any worries that I have away, especially those regarding things I can’t change. Thank you for empowering me to change the things I can change, and thank you for wisdom, that has taught me to let go of anything beyond my control and trust you with it. You’re a good God. Help me to be faithful over the gifts you have given me. Let my gifts glorify you. 

Anyone or anything set to turn me away from you, I ask you to permanently remove from my life. I don’t have time to entertain anything that’s not of you. Keep me on the straight and narrow, so that I will please and honor only you. In Jesus name. Amen. 

If someone wants to walk out of your life, let them go! It could be the best thing that ever happened to you. Holding on to the wrong person can keep you from the right one, or even delay your blessings. Let them move out of your way, so that you can see clearly. Sometimes, the very person you’re holding on to is your biggest distraction.

Don’t be a person who tries to make everyone or even one person love you. You can’t make anyone treat you right, love you, or be loyal to you. Accept the fact that a part of growing is accepting the fact that you will grow apart from some people. Some of these people will be friends or family members. Not everyone can go where God is taking you.

So, if they leave, bid them farewell, and continue to keep on keeping on. What God has for you, is for you, whether it’s a relationship, job, healing and wholeness, financial breakthrough, or whatever you need. God is the Source. Everything else is a resource. Depend on no one but God alone, and remember, if God is all you have, you have EVERYTHING, that you need. ❤️

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Father, I pray that you comfort the hearts of those who are full of worry from the troubles of this world or personal issues they face in every day life. Lord, help them to rest their minds by giving their troubles to you. Jesus, we trust you. You are Lord over all, and your Kingdom never ends! You reign forever. You’re bigger God. Bigger than anything and everything life throws at us. We put our hope in you. We thank you that the war is already won. Every knee will bow and every tongue will confess that Jesus is Lord. We do not walk in fear. We walk by faith and complete love. We are free, delivered, victorious, and powerful. We are a people who shall not want because You take care of every one of our needs. We plead the blood of Jesus over our minds, our lives, and our family, to include the entire body of Christ. We declare 1 Peter 2:9 over our lives. “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light.” We’re not afraid of tomorrow because we know you’re there. We thank you for knowing the beginning and the end and everything in between. No matter where we are in life God, you are there. Thank you for mercy. Thank you for grace. Thank you for favor, but most importantly, thank you for your love. Your love keeps us, even when we can’t keep ourselves. Your love protects, covers, restores, heals, empowers, frees, delivers and so much more! If we had a thousand tongues we couldn’t thank you enough. We take the focus off ourselves and give you the glory, Lord. You deserve to be magnified. You deserve the praise. You are God, and you reign forever. Have your way in our lives. Take a seat on the throne of our hearts. We turn our cares over to you. In Jesus name. Amen. 🙏🏾

Dear God,
Forgive my sins and heal my heart. Heal that deep dark place that I hide behind my smile, my gifts, and my wisdom. Get rid of that spirit of perversion which is causing me to be double minded and blind to the Truth. You are the Way, the Truth, and the Life, Jesus. Lord, I trust you with my entire being. It’s your Spirit who keeps me focused when the distractions are closing in on me, or when things aren’t going according to plan. Help me to remember that you chose me. Not because I’m perfect, but because your perfect will can be done through me and because you first loved me. Wash me in your blood. Remove those suppressed feelings that are secretly harboring garbage in my spirit. I denounce bitterness, hate, vengeance, lust, rage, envy, depression, physical or mental sickness, and any foolishness of this world. I look to you God, to repair my brokenness. I can’t do this by myself and no one else has that power. I give myself away, completely to you. Change me and make me more like you. Change my way of thinking. Let my walk match my talk, and let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight. Let whatever I do in the dark, match what I profess in the light. In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen.

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Excuse my rant but editing sucks! 🗣🗣🗣
If you’re a writer, I’m sure that you get where I’m coming from. It’s really tough when you’re a self-published author, like myself, who has to do A-Z of the writing process 📢 BY YOURSELF! You may wonder where this frustration is coming from.
Well let me tell you. Editing shows you all your mistakes. It shows your inconsistencies. It shows where you can use some improvement. You even have those moments where you’re like, “What the hell was I thinking?” That’s me, currently, while editing one of my books for the fifty-leventh time!
Anyway, now that I’m done ranting.
I want to give you some quick inspiration. While going through the motions of my love/hate relationship with editing, I’ve realized that life’s a big old edit. Except you can’t go back and change the past, but yeah. Think about it. You may not be able to change the past but you get a do over. You can ultimately change the trajectory of your story.
If you pay attention, you can learn from your mistakes and become wiser. You may make some pretty awesome plans for your life only to find out that it’s best to take a completely different route, or that you suck at that and need to find your niche, or whatever the case may be. Just as editing can show you the truth about your work. Life can show you the truth about… your works! Life shows us who we are and it’s up to us to pay attention.
We don’t have to like the editing process of life that causes us to face some hard truths about ourselves, but in the end, it helps shape, mold, and grow us. In the end, if we’ve paid attention to the editing process of our lives, we will end up with a beautiful story.
So, even though editing to me is like the trials and tribulations of book writing, I can’t help but be patient and pay attention. I make it my business to learn from my previous mistakes so that I won’t continue to waste time. I’m ready to move on to the next level of this editing phase, but this part requires my attention, self discipline and patience. A lot of which the next level of my life is requiring. Thank God for Jesus, because in the editing process of life, His grace is sufficient for us to make it through. He’ll even help you with the entire process of writing a book. 😉
Anyway, hope you have enjoyed. No, I didn’t edit this. So if there’s mistakes, too bad. I’ve been editing for twelve hours straight, I have a headache and I just want to eat tacos and go to bed. Goodnight! 🌙😘