Have you ever done something based off how you were feeling at the time? It probably felt good at the time, but looking back, you’re like, what in the hell was I thinking? The truth is, you wasn’t, or at least not logically. All you could hear at the time was your feelings, and that’s what you acted upon, and when it came time to reap the harvest of the seeds you’d sown, it turns out that you didn’t get the fruits you labored for, partly because you labored in vain in that area, but God! 🙌🏾 God is the God who wastes nothing!
Let me say that again for the people in the back. God is the God who wastes nothing! He can take something you were about to throw away, and create something totally new, that you didn’t even know you were missing in your life! It will be exactly what you need, and it will fill you in the most fulfilling and satisfying way possible! He’s so good. So, this morning when I woke up, and I thought about something stupid I’d done in my past, that was done out of complete impulse, and without regard to the reality of things, or whether my feelings were based on truth, or just how I felt at the time, I began to beat myself up a bit, but God intervened and said, there’s a lesson there, and that slip up, I experienced, wasn’t in vain.
He told me to learn from it, and do better. Forgive myself, and be better. Sometimes, it’s hard, because all we hear is our mistakes, our disappointments, our past, what should have, would have, or could have been, and our feelings take over, because all of those things are speaking to us so loud, that it’s overbearing, and we feel the only escape or relief we have, is to give in, but we have to practice self discipline and self control, and we must learn to take charge of our thoughts, by speaking the Word of God over our lives. Sometimes, we slip and fall, or act out of our feelings because we won’t read our Bible, talk to God, or speak to that situation with the authority of the Holy Spirit. There’s always a way of escape, but a lot of times, we don’t want to escape. We want to experience whatever we’re lacking, and a sad truth is, we often do whatever it takes to get that feeling we’re desiring, whether we feel a need for success, love, beauty, or attention.
If we don’t stay grounded in God’s Word, we will go about accomplishing those things the wrong way, just so we can get a “temporary high.” When we do things our way, the high of the things of this life, definitely won’t last. The only thing that lasts is the peace of God, the love of God, the grace of God, Him and everything of Him and about Him. I get it now. I just thank God that it doesn’t take much for me to learn my lesson.
That hasn’t always been the case! Especially in my twenties, but let’s not go there! Lol The thing is, I already knew the thing to do, but I didn’t. I can definitely relate to Paul, when he said, in Romans 7:15-25, “15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.”
I just thank God for the lesson, and even though I could have done better, I’ve gained a better perspective. I had to go through that, to get to a place of wisdom, and understanding. I had to go through it, so that I learn to move out of my comfort zone. I had to go through it, so that I confront those ugly truths about myself, and I had to go through it, so that I am equipped and so that I am able to be trusted with the next level of my life. I just thank God for the lessons. 🙏🏾
In everything, I remain, grateful. ❤️