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Why would God do this?
It had been a week after Mark’s funeral, and Jess was not doing well. She’d fallen into a deep, dark depression. She wanted to give up on life. At the funeral, Shante and Karen had to gently pull her away from Mark’s casket because she stood over his body crying for seven minutes. Chris had gotten a phone call from his mom today, saying that Jess was in the hospital from overdosing on oxicodone. Jessica’s mom would call her every day, several times a day, since Mark’s death to make sure that Jess was doing okay. Her mom became concerned that she hadn’t heard from Jess all day, despite several attempts to reach her, so her mom went over to check on her, and that’s when she found Jess unconscious with a suicide note on her night stand. Luckily, her mom got there in time and called an ambulance, and by the grace of God, Jess didn’t die. Shante, Chris and Karen came to the hospital to show their support. “Here you go mom, here’s a cup of coffee. Are you sure you’re not hungry? You need to eat,” Chris said. “Thank you, baby. I’m fine, I can’t eat right now. The doctor’s want to monitor her for a few days to make sure she’s no longer a danger to herself. They also want to do a psych eval on her when she gets better. I’m not going to let them put her in some crazy house. I’m going to let her come live with me for a while,” their mom said. “Mom you have a lot going on. You have your own health issues that you’re dealing with. She can stay with me and Karen. Isn’t that right, baby?” Chris said. “Of course, mom. We will be more than happy to let Jess live with us for a while,” Karen said. “Don’t be silly. The two of you can’t be stressed either. Karen you are already high risk, and trying to take care of Jess would be too much on the two of you. Don’t worry about me, I’m fine. I’ve got this,” their mom said. “Are you sure Ms. Tina? Because Jess can live with me for a while. I don’t mind,” Shante said. “I’m sure Shante. Thank you though,” Ms. Tina said. The doctor came to the waiting room to give another update on Jess and said that they could visit her for a while. He said that they had some blood work done and were waiting for some tests to come back. He also emphasized that Jess was still under a lot of emotional stress, so family and friends needs to focus on being present and showing emotional support at this time. After showing support for her friend for several hours, Shante left the hospital and told Jess and the family to call her if they needed anything. On Shante’s drive home, Travis called her and said that he had been at the restaurant waiting on her for the past twenty minutes. “Travis, I’m so sorry. So much has been going on the last two weeks. Tonight totally slipped my mind. I just left the hospital, my best friend isn’t doing well,” Shante said. “Is everything okay?” Travis asked. “No, she is taking her boyfriend’s death really bad. She overdosed, and I just don’t know what to do. I can’t imagine being in her shoes, but I’m doing the best I can to show her support,” Shante said. “Oh, definitely. I totally understand. So, rain check?” Travis asked. “Yes. As a matter of fact, why don’t you come over tomorrow night. I will cook us dinner. I want to make up for this,” Shante said. “Okay, sounds like a plan,” Travis said. “Okay, I will call you back when I get home,” Shante said. “Okay, cool. Talk to you soon,” Travis said. “Okay, bye,” Shante said before ending the call.
Back at the hospital, Karen and Chris were about to leave as the doctor came into the room. The doctor said that he needed to discuss Jessica’s blood test results with her. Jessica said that it was okay for her family to be in the room. The doctor said that all the test results were normal but Jessica was pregnant. According to the bloodwork, Jessica was three weeks. “I understand what you’ve went through and are going through, but you must take care of yourself because you have another life to think about as well. Okay?” The doctor said. “You are very blessed to have a strong supportive family in your corner, so hang in there, stay strong and congratulations,” the doctor said before she left the room. Ms. Tina, Chris and Karen all congratulated Jessica, but Jessica was silent. After a minute of silence, Chris and Karen said their goodbyes and left the hospital.
“Why would God do this, ma? I don’t know how I’m going to make it. How did you be so strong after daddy died all those years ago?” Jess said. “I had to be strong for you and your brother. Yes, I had lost my husband, but I couldn’t focus on my loss, I had to focus on what I had left. There were many days and nights I cried, but I had to be strong for when you and your brother cried, but truth is, I wasn’t always alright, and baby it’s okay if you’re not alright, but don’t give up on life. I don’t know why God took Mark. I don’t know why he took your dad, but I do know that even though life was taken away from us, we have a reason to live. My reason to live was to raise my children the best I can, and to train the two of you up in the way of the Lord, so that when you are older you won’t depart from Him. The two of you were my reason to go on, and now, your baby needs you to be strong. God left you with a miracle, so that you will always be reminded of the love you had. If you can’t focus on anything else right now, focus on becoming the best mom for your baby, because he or she will need you. Not only will they need you, but your brother and I need you, and most importantly, God need you here. You could have died, but God spared your life on purpose. This wasn’t luck or an accident, and although I don’t know the plans God has for you, I do know that they are good plans and He promised in Jeremiah 29:11 to give you hope and a future. So, baby it’s okay to grieve. It’s okay to yell, cry and be angry, but don’t shut me or your family and friends out and most importantly don’t give up on God. Even now, He has not forsaken you, and even in death, He did not forsake Mark. Mark knew God. Was he perfect, no. None of us are perfect, but I know that Mark is now resting in the Lord. You will see him one day, but don’t rush it okay?” her mom said. Jessica smiled, “I won’t. I’m sorry,” Jessica began to cry. “Thanks, mom,” she said. “I love you baby,” Ms. Tina said. “I love you too,” Jessica said. Her mom kissed her on the forehead and gave her a hug as she laid in bed.