Deliver me from familiarity! I tried and I can’t do this on my own. I’m tired of coping and hoping, it’s time for a change. I keep going back because I know the feeling it gives me. I know what to expect when I go back to those familiar grounds. I know what it looks like, feels like, taste like, sounds like… and although it gives me a temporary feeling of pleasure, it’s also a temporary solution to escape my reality, my uncertainties, my disappointments and my own idleness. Help me to stay focused on the long haul, and give me the strength to endure these short term problems that’s really distractions to keep me from reaching my full potential in you. Keep me from becoming lost in myself. When I’m consumed with my grief, my loneliness, my shortcomings and setbacks, it keeps me living selfishly, because I’m only focusing on me. I do things that I don’t want to do, because it helps me cope with not being where I want to be in life. It’s no excuse, but I just want to be real with you Lord, because I need to be delivered from addictions, toxic relationships, double minded behavior and all the things I do that I know isn’t pleasing to you. Romans 7:20,25, & 8:1-2 says, “Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it. Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin. Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.” So, I’m declaring my victory. I’m holding myself accountable for my actions. I will recognize those triggers (distractions) that are designed to hold me down and pull me back. No matter how difficult this journey of life gets for me, I will rely on you Lord Jesus, for strength. I will no longer shout, I receive it, and then do nothing about it. I will receive it (whatever you have for me), because I will put my faith in action and be obedient, so that I may attain it! Signed,
Truth is I’m tired, but I won’t go back.
In Jesus name. Amen 🙏🏾